Could not feel more trapped then I do right now. As much as people say that it is just a phase of life or there is a light at the end of the tunnel, the more I age the longer that tunnel becomes and the more I realize that the life I imagined is far away from the life I will have. I see too many failures, too many lost opportunities, and too much loneliness. How can I feel love when it’s impossible for me to be honest to anyone. I want a fresh start, I need a fresh start, that’s why if this opportunity comes, I’m taking it. I have spent too long victimizing myself, I will no longer suffer over the things I have had to do for you.